I like Utah, I really do it is very beautiful, full of new adventures, and my husband and baby are here with me.
I miss Az like REALLY bad. I miss walking outside in sandals & shorts. Playing at the park and having all day pool days with BBQ's. I miss my family. my friends. and knowing where the heck I am driving to.
Even though I talk to my parents and text my friends from time to time I still feel lonely. I just want to sit inside (because to me its freezing outside) and watch tv & sleep all day. I feel pathetic. and kinda alone.
Its hard enough when lots your friends don't have kids so you don't get to see them much so you adapt & make new mommy friends but its another thing to move out of state where you don't know anyone, don't have family to turn to & try to make new friends. Trust me I suck at making friends. I am just an odd person. I have had the same friends for a while now and I have trouble keeping new friends I like routine.
Jacob, Xelly & I have had some super fun times and we have got to be more of a "family" for the past 2 weeks. Re-learning things about us and making new memories. If I say I have loved every moment of it that would be an understatement. I have loved all of our together time and look forward to the weekend like crazy because I know it gets to be just the 3 of us doing super fun new things.
I guess I am just in a funk right now. I feel like I need to shop everyday. not just clothing but groceries, plants, home decor. I don't but I just have that urge. I am not a person that normally likes to shop. If I do end up shopping its for Xelly or Jacob unless its shoes (drool).
Sorry for being a Debbie downer. The people I have met here in my neighborhood are awesome and seem so fun I just need to get out of my skin and make an effort now assume that no one wants to be my friend. I also need to stop thinking about myself then I will start to feel better and enjoy life more.
Here is to me taking a shot at a different outlook on our new life.
|I did her hair in curls|
|play in the dishwasher- so cool!|
|she does all the hard work.|
she loves to push all carts by herself.
|I love him!|
|He is my best friend.|
That was my vent. I hate to vent.
positive happy posts from now on.