Sick little Xelly bug

Xelly got sick back in Febuary- by far the worst sickness she has had.

It started mild then one night I checked on her and she felt super got but we didn't have any thermometers thanks to Quinton who likes to hide things. 

Jacob ran to the store and we checked her she was fevering at 104.9. Cold cloths and medicine got her to 101 and she slept good all night.

The day time was better for her, she just wanted to lay around and rest.

After about 4pm her fever spiked to 105.8 and she started shaking. Our neighbor and home teacher is a kids doctor so he came to check in her and give her a blessing.

She had strep, double puss ear infection and some heat rash from the high fever. 

After constant meds, liquids and sleep  she fevered for another day or two before she woke up up with no fever for 24hrs. 

That was the worst week of no sleep and sick kid we hve ever had.

I need to focus on others instead of myself.

Blah...Don't feel obligated to read this.

I like Utah, I really do it is very beautiful, full of new adventures, and my husband and baby are here with me.

I miss Az like REALLY bad. I miss walking outside in sandals & shorts. Playing at the park and having all day pool days with BBQ's. I miss my family. my friends. and knowing where the heck I am driving to. 

Even though I talk to my parents and text my friends from time to time I still feel lonely. I just want to sit inside (because to me its freezing outside) and watch tv & sleep all day. I feel pathetic. and kinda alone.

Its hard enough when lots your friends don't have kids so you don't get to see them much so you adapt & make new mommy friends but its another thing to move out of state where you don't know anyone, don't have family to turn to & try to make new friends. Trust me I suck at making friends. I am just an odd person. I have had the same friends for a while now and I have trouble keeping new friends I like routine. 

Jacob, Xelly & I have had some super fun times and we have got to be more of a "family" for the past 2 weeks. Re-learning things about us and making new memories. If I say I have loved every moment of it that would be an understatement. I have loved all of our together time and look forward to the weekend like crazy because I know it gets to be just the 3 of us doing super fun new things.

I guess I am just in a funk right now. I feel like I need to shop everyday. not just clothing but groceries, plants, home decor. I don't but I just have that urge. I am not a person that normally likes to shop. If I do end up shopping its for Xelly or Jacob unless its shoes (drool). 

Sorry for being a Debbie downer. The people I have met here in my neighborhood are awesome and seem so fun I just need to get out of my skin and make an effort now assume that no one wants to be my friend. I also need to stop thinking about myself then I will start to feel better and enjoy life more. 

Here is to me taking a shot at a different outlook on our new life.

I did her hair in curls

play in the dishwasher- so cool!

she does all the hard work.
she loves to push all carts by herself.

I love him!

He is my best friend.

That was my vent. I hate to vent.
positive happy posts from now on.

Love, Joni